Hi

I've had digestive issues for as long as I can remember, getting medicine for dyspepsia from the doctors at age 7, being my first recollection.  As an adult I've had IBS, horrendous systemic yeast overgrowth, food sensitivities, cameras up and down and most recently a diagnosis of functional gastrointestinal disorder, a label because they couldn't find the cause of the recurring soreness I felt in my gut.

From my new found Meta knowledge I can see  I've experienced recurring and ongoing abandonment and/or refugee conflict all my life.  As a new born I was put outside in my pram in the middle of the really bad Winter of 62/63 in the UK because that's what you did.  As a 6 year old I was asked to play a cornet solo at the Christmas concert.  I got stage fright, cried and wouldn't do it.  My mother didn't come back stage for me and I ended up being comforted by a man I didn't know, sitting on his knee next to my mother in the audience.

Amongst other things my marriage broke up (my decision) so I had to move from my home in the country to rented in the middle of a council estate.  During Matrix training I discovered I didn't feel loved as a child.  I lost my partner suddenly 15 years ago.  We were also in business together so I've 'existed' financially ever since.  I sought sanctuary with my parents at the family farm where I still live with my dad, 88.  It's not mine and my sister-in-law doesn't want me there.  My daughter kept leaving me to live with her dad when she didn't like what was going on.  This week I've discovered she doesn't want to hug me (or anyone except her children) at all, ever (said she didn't want to hug her husband sometimes so clearly an issue I didn't know existed).

In and amongst all this I've had lower back problems but that was when I was in the wrong life with the wrong person doing the wrong job.  Not so bad now although I still get flare ups.  A more consistent symptom is fungal nail problems on my feet interspersed with athletes foot.  I also have dry skin on my shins and scalp and leather skin on my outer big toes.  Clearly a conflict active/repair phase situation going on here.

What's interesting with the above, and my reason for using this example is because I'm normal weight and always have been.  I don't suffer from any localised swelling either.  I'm not an endomorph but I am busy from the moment I get out of bed to the moment I get back in.  If I'm not doing anything physical, I'm sorting some situation in my mind, whatever has reached the top of the list.  As I get older it's easier to gain weight if I eat more or move less.  I don't have any of the other tendencies listed in the book but I like a bargain, who doesn't (think that comes from necessity since being on my own).  I try to keep hydrated but don't get through 2lts a day so I sometimes have mild kidney discomfort on both sides.  However I've observed and it doesn't seem to relate to my water consumption.

So with all that's going on it would suggest an active SBS of the kidney collecting tubules along with kidney tubules syndrome. I think I understand most of what's going on but am still wondering how, thankfully, I'm still getting away with not being overweight.