Having mixed feelings isn't a classical constellation, but a conflict of your values: independence vs getting help to heal quicker. This is what I mean in the documentation form in point 14. "Conflicting values/priorities"
There are constellations in all brain layers. Wanting to do everything by oneself MIGHT be due to a "cerebral medulla constellation", that is when one has self-devaluations regarding both partner and children/parents. We'll cover those when we dive deeper into that layer.
We see that you don't keep up the muscle success because you take your home environment too seriously and you judge yourself for untidyness.
Here would be something to explore why it is so important to have your home tidy? 
Another thing to work on is the fearful self-talk which creates expectation of more pain. I think, by this you are reactivating both self-devaluation and the KCT.

We'll talk more about the kidney tubules in tomorrow's session!