I'm moving Rachael's experience of our session to this thread./Kora

 Rowand3
Experience share
Rowand3 2023-03-01 23:55

Hi everyone

Just thought I'd share my experience of yesterday's session. Earlier that day I'd been chatting to someone about my course saying initially it all seemed so complicated but I'd thought it would click into place. Over half way through and I was still waiting for it to click so I'd wondered if as you got older it was more difficult to understand things. She said people had different learning styles stating drawing a picture helped her because she was a visual person. I knew that writing things down your self apparently helped the brain absorb info more easily so maybe I should try that.

Once home having read Kora's instructions for the session I was thrown into a panic. Wishing it had been sent earlier so I'd had more time I frantically flipped through my physical copy of the Eybol book (quicker, easier than the e-book I've found). I had thoughts that everyone else would have lots of questions and input whilst I sat there thinking I've no idea what you're talking about. Based on the case history provided I found potential answers to the tissues involved and underlying causes. In my panic I saw kidney pain and inoperable tumour and took it to be in the kidney basic tissue, which indicated water flow conflict but it didn't feel right and I didn't understand the link between that and anxiety and burnout. I didn't know what the kidney pelvis was and couldn't find the relevant info to help me but I'd got something written down, I felt better.

With hindsight I wrongly assumed what was required of us, I was jumping ahead, trying to solve the puzzle with only a couple of pieces. Panic was preventing my brain from focussing. What Kora asked for was much more simple and didn't need loads of time to sort out as I'd originally assumed.

Once in breakout one person said they'd missed a few sessions so wasn't sure what was going on. Another said they'd not had chance to check the sessions instructions and couldn't find the form. They also said they felt they needed to do the course again because they didn't understand, that there was so much info to take in that it couldn't be done in one go. The other person agreed. I said if it made them feel any better I felt exactly the same.

Once we were all back together questioning revealed more info so I was able to understand 'change in the kidney pelvis (later diagnosis inoperable tumour)' meant the tumour in that area indicated a territorial- marking conflict and not the water flow I originally thought.

Although encouraged to follow the questioning script, with so many people trying to solve the puzzle at the same time there was bound to be differences in thought process and so perhaps more difficult to follow than if it had been a 1 to 1 session. Personally I found the previous weeks re-enactment far more confusing and couldn't keep up during the session. Afterwards I felt very overwhelmed and panic stricken and thought I'm never going to get this. However I found it much easier (like Sara suggested) to listen back to it whilst typing up the case on the case study form and then reflecting on what I'd written. Previously I've submitted a case study on myself which basically was a write up from a breakout session, so much easier for me to complete. I've also started others using family and friends in a bid to work out what's going on.

So for me, moving forward, I've learnt it's important to establish exactly where the physical issue is presenting (rather than assuming) before trying to identify the conflict. It's simpler to follow the thread when it's a 1 to 1 like with Nagwa in lesson 12 (although it can be chaotic, I appreciate it's good experience when everyone's involved). Practice make perfect so the more case studies I complete, partial or otherwise, the more I understand (my vested interest may help here). I'm not the only one feeling overwhelmed!

Rachael xx