Yea regarding my daughters they were kids at the first UDIN moment 
 Did I get what you said right ? You mean what I experienced was not always a stress phase symptom , in my anger situation it was a healing peak! Because it was only for two hours and everything then disappeared 

So I’m fluctuating between two things , VAGOKS of a UDIN moment 
and  stress triggers with their healing peaks like also in the birth condition ? !